Love or hate
Friday, May 21, 2010 @ 9:36 PM

I'm kinda see through more. I'm kinda know things more.

Youngsters like to draw a clean line between hate and love.

Love you wholeheartedly, but if you betray, hate you to the bone.

I also make it clean and clear. What's the point? Now I think back, really, what is the point to make them so clear?

You hate that person because you once loved him/her. You love that person because you once hated him/her.

You won't wanna be cheated or betrayed by the one you loved. But if they chose to do that, does that mean all the sacrifices you made for them is worthless?

Love and hate should be balanced.

No matter how much you hated that person, have you ever once loved him/her?
If you do, why must you make yourself feel so tragically lonely to be hating those that you actually love?

To love or hate them, it's my choice.

Should I make myself more happy or more upset, it's my choice.

Hate them, so I must make them sorry? After they are punished, will I be happy?

I should just do my part to love those that I love. Whatever they have done wrong, advise them will do, choices are theirs, they make their own decision. I can't decide for them.

Do it, mUi. Though I am now very lost, I am thinking through.

*If now I met an accident, I will not struggle to live. Doctors said it's the determination of the patient that make them alive again. No, I will not struggle. I have lost the will to survive. I am still living because I still have those who want me to be with them. However, that is not powerful enough to make me wanna stay strong and live on. I leave how my life should be. If death is coming near, I will not fight to live, I will leave.