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I am mUi
Interior Design & Renovation Works
From Singapore
1989

I miss my hubby
Friday, February 11, 2011 @ 1:40 AM

I was wondering why is my body acting so strangely since the day I reach Singapore. I took plane alone, without Mr Lee. I had difficulty falling asleep the night before, my body is resting, my mind is running.

I could not finish my breakfast. I immediately packed up and Mr Lee took me to Penang Airport to catch my flight. We were early. I was panicking about taking plane alone the first time, I laughed and talked rubbish to calm myself down.

Kissed, and then I went into the departure hall alone. Mr Lee watched me until I got my passport stamped. The feeling is weird, up an down. My heart felt heavy.

Luckily I went to the right gate and took the right flight. Seated down, and started to have stomachache during the fly. I urgently need toilet, but I do not know where the restroom is, and I am sitting closest to the window (Haw chose for me so that I can look at the scenery), I did not want to disturb the passengers beside me.

Finally I stood up and woke the passengers up to let me go to the washroom, and the passengers were nice, the lady lifted her feet up and the man get out of his seat so that I have bigger space to move out.

Throughout the flight I felt quiet, alone, loud heart beating.



I had very bad appetite that day (This Tuesday), I did not eat any proper meal other than the breakfast Haw bought for me. I ate a few crackers that his sister made and thought is enough for the day. Then mum came, and brought me to coffee shop to eat. I did not expect myself to have appetite the moment my mum came. So I concluded, I am feeling lonely, hence no appetite.

Wednesday, as usual, I can go whole day without food. But I felt useless, why am I looking so weak, not eating? So I bought junk food, and hoping it will help me to eat. It is only an ice-cream, I almost threw up. I have been feeling nauseous since Tuesday.

Today, my appetite recovered a little. I had lunch and dinner (proper meal). And I start to do my work again.




It is weird whenever Mr Lee is not by my side. Ever since the bad incident happened in my family, the one who is always with me is Mr Lee. He's my everything, he's many roles of people around me. If it is me who is away from home, I won't be feeling this way. But this time, it is Mr Lee who is away.

I know I need him badly. I need this guy to speak nonsense to me and listen to my crap and cuddle me like I am his little girl, feed me like I am his pet dog, bring me for a stroll like first time dating.


常说你是我的爸爸,我的哥哥,我的好朋友,我的男朋友。 因为你就像个爸爸疼我,就像个哥哥保护我,就像个好朋友跟我聊废话,就像个男朋友作弄我。 - - - - mUi

I miss my Mr Lee.