Work or family?
Saturday, April 30, 2011 @ 1:54 PM

I do not know how to make a balance between family and work.

If my work requires me to finish up before I leave, it does not count by hours anymore. It is counted by the percentage of work accomplished.

I have boyfriend, dogs and naggy father.

Naggy father asked boyfriend where I am, because he has not been seeing me, other than in the bed every morning.
Boyfriend told naggy father that my job always ties me back from going home on time.
Naggy father and boyfriend both agreed that this is ridiculously unacceptable job.

Dogs hugging and brushing their fur to my clothes everytime I reach home in the midnight from work. Early morning, wagging their tails and watching my every movements closely. They miss me so much and I miss them too. Their walks and food are no longer done by me. Boyfriend took care of everything for me. And I feel like a bastard.

If this job needs me to forget about who I have in my life, should I leave?
If I should always consider for my love ones, should I just not work?

I don't wanna be selfish to "make use" of my boyfriend to do everything for me. I heard him raising his voice to me last night on the phone that I promised him I am coming back, yet I was not, and he waited for so long that he did not want to wait anymore, he decided to go to sleep.

Ain't I a bastard?
For a damn job I am doing these craps to my boyfriend, my dogs, my father.

I decided to talk to the boss about it. I understood that there is no designers now, therefore I need to handle a lot of work. But still, I wish to take family in my first place, then job.

I am really really sorry, hubby.