All I need is your support, not your reproachment.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011 @ 11:03 PM

When we are struggling with a decision, we need appropriate comments from the right persons.

I asked a handful of people about my future, about leaving the company, about joining other company. But who am I kidding. I talked to almost everyone about it. Isn't this all depend on me?

I need people who can think in my shoe, not asking me to leave just because I am not happy, stay because of money.

I spoke to my previous senior whom I know during internship. She is one of the people who understands me well. I respect her a lot because she taught me a lot of things, regardless of work or life. She is like my mentor.

She encourages me to work. She asks me to think what I want to gain from this company. If I keep thinking negatively about this company, I will not be happy work there, and will just find that place a piece of horror.

Yes, working is not about happy or not. I need to be clear what I want to gain from this company. If there is nothing I wish to learn, of course I can leave by all means. But I know I still want to see what more can I get out of the boss, I want to know what other powers he has that he has not shared with me.

Decided to continue working, I thought Haw will support my decision. But it turns out different way.

I know it has not been fair to him to look after my dogs and etc. But I thought he would support me no matter what decision I make. Truly, I am very disappointed with how he responds.

If you can't support what I want to do, what is the point to get together? I think at my stage now, no longer working as a part time, as a student, I am now a full time designer, a professional in design, he cannot accept the change yet. And further down, I don't know what will happen. I hope our love holds tight and stands strong.

I love you.