Don't give too much stress in yourself, you are making yourself unhappy. So what if the ones you care don't care if you care, this isn't the first time it happens. Haven't you understood it and move on?

Too much things to say but too little can be written. That is the purpose of a "diary". Only you to read it, only you to cry with. But I don't wish to keep a diary, because basically this deary place I am staying is not a dear. I swallow all my tears into my stomach and bury it into the mother nature with my dogs, reminding me that there are still people who care, stood by for me, there are still dogs who love me.

So, so what?