Change
Saturday, January 16, 2016 @ 12:39 AM

Have you ever feel unworthy for being protective of and caring for someone, whom will not do what you do for them?
Being someone who would stand up for the weak, both verbal and physical, it gets really upsetting when you realise not everyone will thank you for standing up, not everyone will defend for you when you are in need of support.
Sometimes when the upset gets so worse that I tell myself to mind my own business, just don't help because I am not paid or not begged to help. It gets so uneasy when I know I would go for extra miles for someone, whom takes it for granted. The feeling when you feel you are being used, that your kindness becomes an advantage that someone you care for shamelessly take from you, that I feel like pulling myself back saying no, count me out, because I feel I have been used.
Speaking out does help only if both sides are willing to solve the issue together. It sucks to try talking things out but the other party acts stupid, acts forgetful as if they are goldfish, act innocent as if they only read about fairytales.
I don't regret giving my heart to someone else because that makes me happier, I feel embraced.