We lack communication. I can never imagine life to be when there's obviously a problem that we need to address to, was left aside just because he doesn't want to be confronted, which he calls it "fighting". This immature mindset is full of avoidance, that I cannot live with such communication breakdown. Like how? You obviously dislike the color "yellow" but he still buys you yellow shirt, bedsheet, rug, bag and stuffs, when you were just hoping to tell him no, you don't like it, he will be all defensive to tell you these are his effort and money just take it. Can I live with such defensive attitude person? No I cannot, and not that I had not told him how we should change the way we communicate.

We lack teamwork. A house consists of 2 humans, to look after bills and expenses, house chores and family. A couple should be building wealth together by sharing how to plan their finance strategically, to pay off bills and debts, to do a maintenance for the house, to look after or standby for family's needs, and to travel for family bonding and exploring the world. A couple should work together to look after and share the house work together, the feelings and emotions of each other and family. From the most basic strategy planning of finance is already not working well, he's still not willing to give up his expensive friends gathering when he cannot even afford to save for the most basic, he's still not willing to spend lesser on expensive food when his work is not stable enough to live till the next month. End of the day, he's still splurging, I cannot be doing all the saving all by myself.

We lack planning.. We lack the sense of urgency.. Etc..

Whenever I miss him again, I will have to remind myself, we won't go far and it's time for a change in life.