seeing his likes on fb memories of photos of us with zhuzhu at waterfront,

noticed his whatsapp display photo changed to his own face,

and a post he liked -

如果我说了两遍了，这件事情我很介意

会让我很不开心，你还是要继续做

那第三次， 我只能让你，和这些破事一起消失

It's strange because I have a moment of stun when photos are liked - he still misses me.

It's strange because the photo changed is taken at my place - was it taken on his last day in the house? Yeah he's still handsome, and suddenly I miss him.

It's strange because I feel calm yet a relief that he might have understood something through this breakup - yes after many chances given over twelve years, if it's still happening, one day I will make you and your trash get out of my sight. But so what if he understood? I should not even care about it.

It's just a very short term emotions anyway. It still feels good without him. Good night.